Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Go-go-go

Relocated blog, actually i'm not really using it often haha.

Just want to change a new url.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

!?!?!?!

LOL whats with the spam bots on my tagboard, talking to air???

Anyway, i really really have nothing to blog about, not that I'm leading a boring life though.

Its just perspective, and all about knowing whats good for you.

Life's as good as it is......No, in fact its even better than the past.

Its really this way now.

Friday, September 17, 2010

Hoshi no tobira

Kanji:
見上げる空
哀しみの
蒼き嘆きの詩がただ聞こえる

優しい白い瞬き
奪い去った 風… 彼方

逃げない 僕は決めたよ
君の温もり傍に 感じて

目をそらさずに
全てこの胸に
刺さる真実ならば

歩いてゆこう
歪み塞がれた
星の扉の向こう…

嗚り止まない
赤い雨
思い出せない潰された足音

君の手 そっと触れたら
感じてるよ その鼓動

繋いで もう離さない
照らし続けよう 星の光で

何かが変わる
両手広げたら
それが真実だから

何処へも行かず
僕の傍にいて
扉を開けてあげよう

目をそらさずに
全てこの胸に
刺さる真実ならば

歩いてゆこう
歪み塞がれた
星の扉の向こう…
Romaji 

miageru sora kanashimi no
aoki nageki no utaga tada kikoeru

yasashii shiroi mabataki
ubaisatta kaze kanata

nigenai boku wa kimetayo
kimi no nukumori sobani kanjite

me wo sorasazuni subete kono mune ni
sasaru shinjitsu naraba
aruite yukou yugami fusagareta
hoshi no tobira no mukou

maari yamanai akai ame
omoi dasenai tsubusareta ashioto

kimi no te sotto furetara
kanjiteruyo sono kodou

tsunaide mou hanasanai
terashi tsuzukeyou hoshi no hikari de

nanika ga kawaru ryoute hirogetara
sore ga shinjitsu dakara
doko e mo yukazu boku no soba ni ite
tobira wo akete ageyou

me wo sorasazuni subete kono mune ni
sasaru shinjitsu naraba
aruite yukou yugami fusagareta
hoshi no tobira no mukou
English 

I can hear nothing but the bluish lament of the song of sorrow as I look up into the sky.
The distant wind took the gentle white twinkle away.

As I felt warmth by your side, I decided never to run away.

If it is the real painful truth, I’ll keep everything close to my heart without moving my eyes away.
Let’s move forward beyond the distorted barrier towards the door to the stars…

The crushing sound of footsteps that are possibly forgotten has not stopped the reddish rain from falling.
Emotions start pulsing with the touch of your hand.

The starlight continuously shines down onto speechless ties.

Something changes when both hands are spread open, and that is the truth.
I will open the door beside me and go wherever I want to go.

If it is the real painful truth, I’ll keep everything close to my heart without moving my eyes away.
Let’s move forward beyond the distorted barrier towards the door to the stars…




Thursday, August 19, 2010

>: O

Was looking at Pianos just now.

*Sits down playing the piano*

Piano's sound is AWESOME. (Y)

*Looks at price tag*

$14k.

..ok nvm.

WTF. LOL NO WONDER ITS AWESOME.

*Looks at grand pianos*

...Nvm.

Cheapest: $22k

Most expensive: $55k

.........................................-_-.

Imagine i work at maple tree 1 day = $50

55000/50 = 1100 days.

1100/5 = 220 weeks.

220/4 = 55 weeks.

55/12 = 4.58 years.

So i have to work for 4 and a half year without eating drinking transporting and spending on anything to get it.

-.-

Saturday, August 14, 2010

安静

I'm just keeping quiet, or rather, I have been keeping quiet.

For now, everything's fine as it is, so lets look forward to tonight's activity!!!!!!

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Argh.

Can anybody seriously come up with a way to counter Terran Battlecruisers effectively???

I can't knock down Battlecruisers with Zerg's AA.

Replay matches x 100 = lose ( 夸张 amount but you get the idea... )

#%)(*#@)%(*#*(%fadsfaefararsfasdf!!!!!!!!

Terran BattleCruisers, 玩臭!

Monday, August 9, 2010

Sian

I was like wondering why I was sneezing just now.

LOL so now I know why HAHAHA.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

A phone call.



Things should have ended by now.

I don't really have a choice isn't it?

I just don't understand why I can't seem to see things will last, you're right, I afraid of getting hurt, I'm very defensive towards myself.

Perhaps like someone, I lack the courage and faith in relationships.

More to, I have no confidence in myself.

The worst thing is, I'm not brave enough to take up the first step to fulfill promises.

No matter how much regrets and "I don't want it end up this way" I may have, I will not become a hindrance in anyone's life anymore.

Sounds noble? Nope its common sense, and I prefer to execute it.

The first time, I learnt 退后,this time I'm learning 说了再见。

Here we go, with another goodbye once again...

Thursday, August 5, 2010

!!?

Must things always end up this way?

Can priorities be changed so easily upon "impact"?

You think this is army promotion and demotion, one moment "you're precious", one moment "who are you?"

As long as I know I've done things with a clear conscience, I don't owe myself any explanation.

But... i just cannot accept how things works at times, more time to digest perhaps.

And now, don't start getting sensitive and switch on the "blame war" yourself.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Hair

Hair colour = Ahbeng??

Not impressive at all.

Soon, I'll turn into "Ah pek"

Is a must, to change it. :D

Monday, July 12, 2010

Lame.

-_-...

Why pick up a gun when you yourself can't even take a bullet?

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Work work work work work.

Funky Sonic World Master: 1 take finally S!!

Argh no time to play next week again -______-.

Work $$$$$$$

Friday, July 9, 2010

Random sleepy thought

出一口气,尊严,公道。

Its good and bad.

For the sake of the aboved mentioned things, end up losing more and regretting, is it really worth it?

I wonder.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

A test.

One of the toughest test I've ever encountered and I failed a number of times.

The benefits of overcoming are limitless.

Its about my willpower to overcome it, will I be able to do it?

I MUST DO IT.

Monday, June 28, 2010

Back muscles

1.5L of lemon = X kg

1 box = 1.5L x 12 = 12X kg.

1 pallet = 3 levels x 11 boxes

1 day = Approx 3000 boxes / 2 ( me + steven ) = 1500 boxes.

Good training, my back muscles have become much much stronger now -_-.

In about 6 hours time from this post... here we go gym.

More upcoming fitness training!

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Sagi.

Kwon YuRi - 5th December 1989.

SNSD Black Pearl.

No doubt, this is really one of my favorite woman in the group SNSD.

To me shes awesome.

This is Tiffany and Yuri, MCs for MBC Music Core :D














Lets end off with a picture of Tiffany, Sooyoung and Yuri @ Biotherm Signing Event

































Yes, to me they are gorgeous :)

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Orc

Suddenly i was reminded of the peon in WC3.

"work work"

Lets do it!

Sunday, June 20, 2010

To those that are having a tough time

He who cease to believe, dreams and reality are merely fantasies, miracles only happen in fairy tales.

He who loses his faith, nothing will work out, nothing will ever last.

He who chooses to give up himself, forcefully concludes the story with a full-stop.

With his own hands.

Decisions, there is no right or wrong, its just a perspective, and its not for third parties to judge.



Although, the feeling of owing anyone an explanation is bad, but owing yourself an explanation is much worse.

Its a pain to live with "what if(s)".

The toughest opponent, is yourself and nobody else.

Don't make your own world crumble and collapse before reality smashes in.

For NS teaches us the most valuable lesson:


Tough times doesn't last, tough men do.

Survive through the tough times with your willpower, stand tall and proud looking back that you pulled through it without taking shortcuts.


For things that doesn't kill you, will only make you stronger.

Stay rational, blessings from me.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

He who CONTROL ARIES this post.

You've succeeded in exposing my flaws Funky Sonic world!

But I wish to emphasize that FSW Master is seriously challenging!

I really cannot take it anymore I must S this song.

Did you guys ever know now even though I'm 6500+

I am still feeling sad that there are songs i cannot handle.

My life has nothing much now really, except DMGF and having fun moments now.
Its damn empty now but I've found a temp job for myself to fill up my time!

When no one is around I'll go zhua.

Okay I know I suck at rolling the hi tom because I hit the gap.

I know its my fault that I am complacent about my right hand's mobility

But I promise it will never happen again I'll train hard for it!

Give me time to change my way of rolling.

I'm sorry... for posting such a random post at this point of time!

Friday, June 18, 2010

Lessons to learn

If..

War
Natural disaster
Plague
Economic downfall

Or any kind of events that causes our lives to be impacted negatively..

kicks in.

You will have no time to contribute to anything that aren't constructive.

Or rather, you don't even have the time to think about other stuffs.

You'd be running and feuding for your life instead.

Learn to appreciate life as it is, learn to appreciate how fortunate our lives are, learn to appreciate the peacetime we share.

Sadly speaking, to many, happiness can never significantly be crystal clear compared to desires and unhappiness.

One's world, isn't originally constructed to fail.

Its more of like, one who fails to see, fails to let go of desires, fails oneself.

Luck someday, will also run out.

Channeling so much energy and focus onto harping what you have lost, unable to achieve what you desire, all your little unhappiness over things that didn't went your way.

Look what is around you, life is just more than these.

When one's demand is higher than what one can provide, when what one can provide doesn't meet the criteria of what is being demanded, that is the start-off point, where things have the highest chances to fall.

Asking for more and more, lacking the will to accept things that cannot be changed, being persistent on changing something that they cannot accept.

"The grass is greener at the other side"...

For sure, I don't have the ideal solution to tell you how to be happy

But I can tell you how to be less unhappy from my experience.

Its just as simple as this:

知足。

Thursday, June 17, 2010

You.

No matter how much money you have

No matter how much attention you're given


No matter how many friends you have


No matter how happy the times you share


No matter how you deem you life is good


Even if you live your life throughout like a king, like a celebrity


At the end of the day, you'll realize

you're as empty as you were from the beginning...


Despite, how much you've worked to fill your life up with everything you want.

Telling yourself you will never want the life you had from the beginning ever again.

The desire formed by the crave of attention, will never be filled, 


much less to say, filled up.


Running from the reality, living in your dreams.


You're popular virtually, lonely in reality.


You can never experience and feel something which isn't real, no matter how much it seemed real.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Training

Results are showing abit already!!!

52kg. ( As heavy as Kenneth already, but can be heavier.. )

"Garang" level up, bench-press training this wednesday!

Target: "Crawl" out of the gym.

Wait, swimming later!

Lets do it!

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Angelic Voice

만약에 내가 간다면 내가 다가간다면
manyage naega gandamyeon naega dagagandamyeon

넌 어떻게 생각할까 용기 낼 수 없고
neon eotteoke saenggakhalkka yonggi nael su eopgo

만약에 니가 간다면 니가 떠나간다면
manyage niga gandamyeon niga tteonagandamyeon

널 어떻게 보내야할지 자꾸 겁이 나는걸
neol eotteoke bonaeyahalji jakku geobi naneungeol

내가 바보같아서 바라볼 수 밖에만 없는건 아마도
naega babogataseo barabol su bakkeman eomneungeon amado

외면 할지도 모를 니 마음과 또 그래서 더 멀어질 사이가 될까봐
oemyeon haljido moreul ni maeumgwa tto geuraeseo deo meoreojil saiga doelkkabwa

정말 바보같아서 사랑한다하지 못하는건 아마도
jeongmal babogataseo saranghandahaji motaneungeon amado

만남뒤에 기다리는 아픔에 슬픈 나날들이 두려워서인가봐
mannamdwie gidarineun apeume seulpeun nanaldeuri duryeowoseoingabwa

만약에 니가 온다면 니가 다가온다면
manyage niga ondamyeon niga dagaondamyeon

난 어떻게 해야만 할지 정말 알수 없는걸
nan eotteoke haeyaman halji jeongmal alsu eomneungeol

내가 바보같아서 바라볼 수 밖에만 없는건 아마도
naega babogataseo barabol su bakkeman eomneungeon amado

외면 할지도 모를 니 마음과 또 그래서 더 멀어질 사이가 될까봐
oemyeon haljido moreul ni maeumgwa tto geuraeseo deo meoreojil saiga doelkkabwa

정말 바보같아서 사랑한다하지 못하는건 아마도
jeongmal babogataseo saranghandahaji motaneungeon amado

만남 뒤에 기다리는 아픔에 슬픈 나날들이 두려워서인가봐
mannam dwie gidarineun apeume seulpeun nanaldeuri duryeowoseoingabwa

내가 바보같아서 사랑한다하지 못하는건 아마도
naega babogataseo saranghandahaji motaneungeon amado

만남 뒤에 기다리는 아픔에 슬픈 나날들이 두려워서인가봐
mannam dwie gidarineun apeume seulpeun nanaldeuri duryeowoseoingabwa

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


If i were to go
 

If i were to get close to you
 

What would you think?
 

I don’t have the courage.
 

If you were to go,
 

If you were to leave.
 

I don’t know how to send you away
 

It keeps hanging on my mind
 

I know i am a fool and can only watch you from afar
 

Your heart may look away from me…
 

And so we could even become strangers
 

Just like a fool i can’t even say that i love you because …
 

We’re afraid the wait that comes upon us
 

After we meet will be painful and sad.
 

If you were to come
 

To come near me.
 

What would i do ?
 

I really don’t know
 

Because im like a fool.
 

Even though i know looking is all i can do
 

Your heart may look away from me
 

And so we could even become strangers
 

Just like a fool i can’t even say that i love you because….
 

We’re afraid the wait that comes upon us
 

After we meet will be painful and sad
 

Because i’m like a fool
 

Even though i can’t say i love you
 

We’re afraid the wait that comes upon us
 

After we meet will be painful and sad.

Reply

To you, the one who has been reading my blog silently through mobile or other ways.

Its not that I cannot let it go of what has happened, neither I am pinpointing whose responsibility is this.

This isn't an issue at all.

Its 21st century, you and I know that, we're more open-minded compared to the past generations.

Someday, when you're absolutely fine, I'll explain the reasons behind my actions for not doing a single thing, sitting down "heck-care" everything, if you bother to listen.

You have many better things in life waiting for you to accomplish, prioritize them.

Nothing good comes out if you know me too well.


Know me well, and you'll know that I'm rotten.

Friday, June 11, 2010

Simple terms

Level 1

Real drummer
Real guitarist *new*
Double-Pedalist
Roller
Furion
Kiao
HAPPENING
Fastest
人~~

Level 2

C-point
Skill meter ( whole screen + background )
CHANGER
Competitive
WYMTL
S_ourge
Sentinel
SaTINIzer
Roshan
Railgun
B18
Ghostman
Ghost Commander Course
Hades
Ccb
Knn
"Your"
(Y) *likes this*
lols
_|_
M** lun/Wei J**


Level 3

地狱/HELL
阴曹地府( YCDF )
不明示
暗示
HINT
** ( blink blink )
跑音 ( En~TER~tain *high pitch on ~~* 你们 ) 

Level 无限 of 2010

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

>: D

Weight training progress:

+1 kg!!!

To me is accomplishment okay! :D

More upcoming weight training sessions!

Skally someday become that "wing" kia HAHAHA.

Set 1: 11

Set 2: 111

Set 3: 111111

Set X: blk 752.

Saturday, June 5, 2010

A message

Maybe you're correct, I didn't felt the impact its because I didn't put in feelings at all when i said that.

I can never understand why plight you may be in right now, neither do I can feel what you feel right now.

I've always done my best, to fulfill my part as a friend to you, I may have done the wrong way.

But what I want to tell you is, 1 year ago you didn't know me, you're living your life well, don't let my existence, become an obstacle in your life.

I don't wish to mess up your life.

Sorry, for unable to fulfill the promises I made to you, because this will only make things go wrong.

Live your life happily, that is what you deserve, back to the right track which you've always been.

A person will stand tall no matter how strong the tide is against you, nothing can bring you down, when you don't owe yourself an explanation.

Its never too late, to say stop and correct yourself, not for the sake for forgiveness from others, not for the sake for pleasing others, but for the sake for your own good.

Perhaps years later, as you turn back and see again, you'll find yourself so much better, when you let it go.

Don't ever be brought down by your own illusions and emotions, before you step out to face the reality of life, which may not be as horrible as what your intuition and dreams tell you.

I can, and always be willing, to become your good friend.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

This is....

*MONA LISA!*














I bet now everybody that can play this will agree with me this is overrated right! :D

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Lesson 1.

A lot has happened, and so now, this is the first time and the last time I'll open my "mouth" here and say something here.

Since i didn't learn from the last time, I'll learn it this time:

经一事,长一智。

别强人所难,强迫人作出你想要看见的判断与选择。

中间人是最辛苦的。

Sorry, I have brought upon stress and trouble to some of you.

Its great, to be able to see things in a positive light, and in a way which I have never able to see it before.

My biggest doubt has been cleared, so I'm fine with everything.

I won't open my mouth, I'll prove it >: D

Thank you everybody!

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Railgun

Unfit.

Play quake II play until "heen"..

-_-

Monday, May 24, 2010

Need to plan up my timetable for HLS activities..

Lets see.. Gym/Swimming/Cycling ( random mode )

No running please, unfit..

Lets do it! >: D

Sunday, May 23, 2010

zzzz

Road block = ok.

Road block stop my cab = normal.

Road block stop my cab see me tell me come down...

-___________-.

Tapai kanna screen zzzzzz..

Interesting:

Police first question:

"Are you Singaporean?"

Seriously... which part of my face I do not look like Singaporean??

GOOD question..............-_-

And nice screening while my cab meter fare is jumping at a midnight extra charge rate.

+$$$$$$$

Really a zzzzzz night.

Friday, May 21, 2010

双大腿练习

Results:

Shake and Shout Master: 95%Perfect 2 miss. ( Can be FC-ed! )

Kaiser Phoenix Master: 91% Perfect! X miss -_- ( But UP SKILL )

Anyway, some guardsman booking out tml ah, be prepared to "**" by me and wyman >: D

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Singmania XG

Level up! + 100SP :D :D

But... sing until very 凶/熊/胸。。

So actually, on some songs I can sing more and more like a woman now HAHAHA.

Next time go some random show 不露脸 sing 月牙湾 >: D

Maybe people think I'm some chio bu >>>>>: D

Monday, May 17, 2010

.

#%)(@*#$*(#@

So now then i know, you need 95% SKILL and not 95% PERFECT to get to encore stage.

No wonder. Zzz.

Combo 重视。

Sunday, May 16, 2010

-_-

有一天,
马来人,华人,洋人,广东人和福洲人一起打猎!
突然,马来人想大便,就躲到草丛里解决!
洋人看到马来人在大便,就笑着 说:You Look(英文)
中国人以为洋人说:有鹿(华文)就一枪"碰"过去,马来
被射到重伤。
广东人听到枪响就说:咩事呀 (广东话)
福州人以为广东人说:没死(福州话)又送一枪过去。
哎…可怜的马来人,被种族语言害死了!

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Board game of life

Life its just like snake and ladder.


Sometimes, you soar up the stairway of heaven,


Sometimes, you fall down to the gateway of hell.


When you soar with fame, be generous, its all about repaying the kindness.


When you fall with pain, be strong, withholding the disappointment.


Sometimes, it varies with choices.


Sometimes, it varies with luck.


Be it rising or be it falling


For i tell myself, willpower is my greatest asset to reach the end .


To see my life done,


Isn't about dwelling and staying on. 

Is about living and moving on.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

So that was what is it about.

Nice one, you really went ahead and did it.

Continue please, with a larger AOE because nothing can make me fall.

Monday, May 10, 2010

Alright its time to come back to akshana.blogspot.com!

Hence, I would love to announce that I'm POOR AND I NEED $$$

-_- I'm everytime complaining I'm poor yet I didn't find a job.

Need to need to.

But first off, I'm always so sleepy nowadays, bio-clock is screwed...Zzz.

Must adjust first.